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Dear Harith n Athirah

By on July 25, 2007

Dear Harith n Athirah,

Perhaps by now you already have the idea that you actually have another sister. I’m sure both of you are curious what happen. Since you are now big enough to read….here’s what happen:

Mommy gave birth to all three of you at only 26 weeks of pregnancy as opposed to the usual 38 – 40 weeks. Maybe it was too cramped for all 3 of u to be in mommy’s womb so the 3 of you made majlis syura’ and decided it’s time to come out. Well, mommy felt the pain overnite but thought it wasn’t anything major. And since papa was in Melbourne, mommy told pah bout the pain. It wasn’t that bad, Mommy manage to tolerate the pain until subuh, then I told pah perhaps we should get a check at the hospital since the pain didn’t go off.

Doctor checked mommy and said that i’m in labour. All 3 of you were ready to pop out. Mommy was a bit sad coz papa wasn’t around to witness the moment. Al-hamdulillah, there wasn’t any complication during labour. Mommy gave natural birth to all 3 of you. However, I had few doctors who came to me asking me to be strong for all 3 of you because you were premature.

Harith pop out at 9:05am, Alesya at 9:11am and Athirah at 9:17am, and u all weigh at 760gm, 600gm and 546gm respectively. And your length were, 33cm, 32.5cm and 31cm. I knew something amiss when pah said it’s not necessary for me to see u all at the Special Care Nursery I should take a rest first. Pah said, doctors are handling all of you. That nite, doctor called me down to see the 3 of you. Oh dear, u were all so tiny. I wasn’t even sure what should I do, should I touch you or should I just look at you. Doctors told me all 3 have 50% of survival but Alesya was more critical. Papa arrived shortly after that. He tried to comfort me, but later I saw he was also in tears. Both of us were afraid.

However on the 11th June, at 5:30am doctor called papa saying Alesya is in critical stage. Mommy was still in the hospital so i rushed down. Alesya was looking very pale. Papa and mommy stayed by her sight until 11:30am and went back to my room cause we were expecting visitors. But 20mins later doctor called us down again…it was time for us to say goodbye to Alesya. At 1:17pm Alesya gave her last breath and left us. It was during the azan Zuhur.

I’m not sure if both of you could feel the lost of your lil’ sister but that night papa and mommy had a touching moment with both of you. When mommy touched Harith’s head, we saw tears from your eyes. Then papa went over to Athirah and touched your head. The minute papa touched Athirah, you were also in tears. I guess both of you could feel the lost of you sister. Because of that, mommy make a promise to myself to be strong for the 2 of you, to comfort and ensure you things will be alright, insya-Allah.

You might be wondering what causes Alesya’s death. Alesya was too small. Most of her body system has not fully matured yet. Her lung especially and also her blood vessel. She had bleeding in her brain. The day she left us, doctor detected bleeding in her lung and stomach. Looking at her pale body mommy was really sad fearing that she was in pain. Mommy knew I had to let her go. I guess her name reflects her destiny; Alesya which means protected by God. Allah decided to take her back to be with Him.At least mommy knows she need not suffer any longer to fight for her life. She’s papa’s little girl. She has long limbs, legs and fingers, sharp nose and even the shape of her face. She had my eyes though.

So Harith and Athirah, you should be grateful that Allah is giving you the opportunity to live. So don’t be nottie yah!

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It's official…

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I was undecided in which blog do i write, shall I make a post in my frenster blog or here. Finally after reading alom’s @ lyna’s blog I’ve decided to follow here idea, which is to make a separate blog for my darlings. (lyna, hope u dont mind, me kidnap ur idea) Initially, I made this blog to share my pregnancy journey with other similar triplets mother. However, the journey only end at 26 weeks…

So, since this is officially my lil’ darlings blog…i shall start writting about them n for them. As a start, I should perhaps cut and paste the relevant post in my other blog so Harith and Athirah can read what happen to them (and their younger sista ) when they are big enuff.

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Ahmad Harith, Alesya Zara & Athirah Zahraa

By on June 14, 2007

“I guess her name reflects her destiny; Alesya which means protected by God. Allah decided to take her back to be with Him.At least I know she need not suffer to fight for her life. She’s daddy’s little girl. She has long limbs, legs and fingers, sharp nose and even the shape of her face. She had my eyes though”

The Few Most Popular Questions:

Q1: You have triplets???
A1: Yes, I was blessed with triplets on the 9th of June; 1 boy and 2 gals: Ahmad Harith, Alesya Zara and Athirah Zahraa.
However on the 11th June Alesya Zara returned to Allah during the call of Zuhur prayer.

Q2: Did you know right from the beginning you are expecting triplets?
A2: Yes I did

Q3: Do you have family history of twins/triplets?
A3: Yes, my mom has twin brother. My grandpa has twin sisters, and few other sets of twin cousins and a set of triplets

Q4: Did you have a C-section?
A4: Nope, I didn’t. I delivered all three the natural way.

Q5: How come you gave birth so early?
A5: Unfortunately I didn’t know what I felt over the night was actually a contraction. I thought it was just one of those aching I usually feel through out my pregnancy. Since it was in the middle of the night, I thought it was unnecessary to rush to the hospital, fearing it was nothing major, the nurse might just laugh it off. Somehow as morning approaches I told my mom (hubby not around) I think I need to see the doctor. Guess what? When I reached there, doctor said, mine was 9cm opened (the maximum is 10cm) and my membrane was bulging. They tried to prevent me from giving birth but the medication and oxygen given to me didn’t help much. At almost 9am, they decided I had to give birth.

My babies are very very small, well that’s something we would expect I guess since they were only 26 weeks. Each of them weigh at 760gm, 564gm and 600gm respectively. And their length are 33cm, 32.5cm and 31.5cm.

Unfortunately, Alesya was too small. Most of her body system has not fully matured yet. Her lung especially and also her blood vessel. She had bleeding in her brain. The day she left us, there were also bleeding in her lung and stomach. Looking at her pale body I was really sad fearing that she was in pain. I knew I had to let her go. I guess her name reflects her destiny; Alesya which means protected by God. Allah decided to take her back to be with Him.At least I know she need not suffer to fight for her life. She’s daddy’s little girl. she has long limbs, legs and fingers, sharp nose and even the shape of her face. She had my eyes though.

Of course I couldn’t stop crying when I knew I’m gonna lost her. I was still at the hospital when they did her funeral. I stayed in the hospital so that I could be with my other 2 angels. That night syauQi and I went to see Harith and Athirah. It was a touching moment. When I touched Harith’s head, there were tears from his eyes. Then syauQi went over to Athirah and touched her head. The minute syauQi touched her, Athirah was also in tears. I guess they could feel the lost of their sister. Because of that, I make a promise to myself to be strong for them, to comfort and ensure them things will be alright, insya-Allah.

I asked my lecturer psychologically, could my children feel the lost of their sister? She replied : Although I can’t quote any academic evidence, I believe that your children have formed a bond while in the womb. Similar thing happened to a boy at Rumah Solehah when his twin brother passed. Your surviving children may not have cognitive recollection of their sister but may have memory of the senses. Wallahu’alam.

I was sad, I didn’t had the chance to be at Alesya’s funeral. But after being told other relatives and frens were there, I felt relief knowing lots of people send off Alesya Zara for me. I would like to thank everyone for their concern, love and support. May Allah bless all of you

Q6: How long did hArith and athirAh spend in the hospital?

hArith were in the hospital for 99 days while athirAh were in the hospital for 124 days. However she had to be readmitted to the hospital after 2 spending 2 nights at home due to hernia which needed operation. Besides that both of them went through eye laser for ROP

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Space are limited

By on May 29, 2007

I’m now in my 24th week. Having problem of discomfort lately. I think the babies are growing and they needed the extra space, thus explains why my rib are in pain. The easiest explanation for it is because the babies are taking up more space thus pushing my rib. I feel the pain, right above my tummy, below my breast. I’ll be awaken by the pain about every hour or two at night. And during the day, the pain come and go. Went to see the doctor at a nearby clinic, he said nothing much can be done. It’s not advisable to take any painkiller, afraid of the side effect that might occur. Since I wouldn’t want to risk or rather jeopardize my babies health, I would just have to tolerate the pain.

When the doctor first saw my tummy, he asked what’s my height. I guess it was pretty obvious that the size of my uterus is rather large for my height. I just can’t imagine how it would be like for the next couple weeks. Babies growing in this small petite body of mine. I’m only 157cm and my current weight is 51kg. I was 40kg before pregnant, but the first trimester my weight drop to 38kg, due to terrible or rather horrible morning sickness. Or shall I say, all-day-long-sickness.

I asked the doctor, what’s the earliest for delivery, he told me 28th weeks. Gosh it then hit me…that means I have possibilities of giving birth in 4 weeks! Am I ready? Hard for me to answer to that question. Through the readings I did, most triplet cases give birth between 32 to 34 weeks, the most up to 36 weeks.

Hope things get better for me =)

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Grey's Anatomy

By on May 25, 2007

Sorry for the long hiatus. I always wanted to keep this blog updated but somehow mood of typing ain’t there, yeahh lets blame on the hormone..hihi. In my previous post, I mentioned I am now udner the government hospital. Did my first check-up and glad it wasn’t too bad. Could still tolerate the queue. Well, I hope I’m not saying this too soon, wouldn’t want to go for my next appointment and to find out I’m stuck there for hours and hours. Let’s cross my fingures.

Anyway, what happen? The hospital is promoting the benefits of breast feeding, so there we were, attending a mini seminar of breast feeding, yes it was compulsory. Even husband had to tag along. It really really reminds me back to those uni days where u had to sit for a BORING subject,having no other choice. syauQi felt asleep. It was about 45mins, almost exactly the same length as classes in uni; 50mins.

After the speech, measured my weight, blood pressure and all. My weight have increase up to 10kg!!! As usual had problem taking my blood, they needed 5 tubes of it. Had to cucuk a few times before the blood generously came out.

Then came the part which I always look forward to in every doctor visit, the 3D scan. The feeling that can never be describe in words upon seeing the small creature in you moving around. We could see the baby sucking his/her thumb. After awhile, the baby started putting his/her hands in a position like making dua’ (prayers). The doctor scan me longer than usual because being in University Hospital, they have lots of medic students. So the scenario I face was something like the one in Grey’s Anatomy. Being surrounded by students, exposing my tummy to them while the doctor/professor explain the details of what they could see.
After the 3D scan completed, went to see another doctor for the consultation, she explained to me in detail the result of the scan.

After explaining, she said she needed my help. I was rather curious at that moment, what kind of help a doctor would want from me. Oh, the medic students will be sitting for their exam on Monday, and the doctor was wondering if I could help her by being the subject of case study. The doctor thinks a case of triplets would be great for her students. Anyway, I said I’m fine with it, ( I wouldn’t want to screw my rapport with a nice beautiful doctor, hehehe) she said a small ammount wiill be given to me as a token but actually I was more concerned if she could provide me with a convinient parking lot right infront of the maternity ward.

So far, al-hamdulillah my pregnancy progressing accordingly =)

Oh did I mentioned, the hospital didn’t print out photos of my babies. Apparently they dont do that there. OH….I badly want it!

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So I went to be the “guinea pig” for my doctor. Wow I find it rather impressive. Just by looking at my tummy, yes looking not even touching…the medic students could automatically give a list of report and they even mentioned my uterus seems larger than usual. All students were able to figure out I’m having a multiple pregnancy without even telling them the slightest hint ever. The only think their professor told them was “I want you to check her abdomen” and taddaaaa….they were all able to figure out. Cool! I was checked 6 times, I think mine was the most. the patients beside and infront of me, only had theirs checked 3 times.

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